I am so sick of this weather and the fact that it ruing my social life is also becoming rather annoying.
Example:
Boy: HEY! What are you doing tonight?
Me: It depends on the weather.
Why is it that the weather is controlling my social life and not me? I hate driving in the snow it takes at least twenty extra minutes to get anywhere when it snows. And it isn’t even my driving that scares me it the other whack-a-doodles on the road that worry me.
I also don’t look as cute in the winter. I am a lot paler. I hate 98% of sweaters because they itch and cause a lot of static (That is happening to me today.) I basically spend my days dreaming of cute tank tops, dresses, flip-flops and shorts all year long. Now the daydreaming is getting out of control because stores are bringing out spring/summer clothes. Sigh.
Usually it takes one spring/summer clothing (I buy accessories all year round—I love them) item to get me anxious for spring and then it happened…
Today I was shopping online and got super excited because I found the cutest bright yellow pencil skirt. (Don’t think 80’s) I started to imagine how cute it would be with a plain white tank and super cute jewelry. I could wear it out to the bar, sit on the patio and drink Coronas. It was beautiful, but I tried to snap out of it fast and now I am trying to figure out a way to get through till April.
Side note:And even then Mother Nature can Pull a fast one on us in April. You just can’t trust her.
Tonight I am going out with one of my guy friends! Hopefully we can be entertained and keep eachother entertained!
Friday, February 20, 2009
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Alone vs. Dysfunctional
Just today one of my guy friends asked me via text:
How was your Valentines Day?
How was your Valentines Day?
Me: Valentines Day was alright! How about you
Him: I saw a couple girls cry. Made me kind of happy not being in a relationship.
Me: Oh, God! That was me two or three weeks ago. I want a relationship, but definitely not a dysfunctional one. I’ll take nothing over dysfunctional.
Him: Yeah, totally agree.
Why is it that girls (and guys too) put themselves in these ridiculous relationships? I can honestly say I would much rather be alone (but with my friends, of course) than be with someone who doesn’t appreciate me. [Example: when a guy you are “dating” makes out with another girl in front of you.] There is nothing “fun” about dysfunctional. I used to not mind a little dysfunction, but I am getting way to old to deal with arguments (over petty things), immaturity and tears. There has to be someone out there who appreciates me, right? RIGHT?
I hope so because I am getting pretty lonely all by myself. It isn’t even that I NEED a guy, but I really want to find the “one.” I’m ready.
Wishful Thinking...
Friday, February 13, 2009
Crabby in Cleveland
My life used to be super exciting. Or so I felt like it was and lately it has just been plain boring. Minus my whole trip to Tampa last weeknd which was just plain fabulous. Although leaving to come home wasn't so fabulous because now I miss my best friend (she is one of the few that fully understands me.) Also coming home sucked because it made me realize that Cleveland is my home based on how long I have lived here but it doesn't feel that way.
Back on track to my original point...
I used to be able to hang out with a bunch of different guys and just have fun, but lately I can't even find a backburner guy. Does this mean karma is finally catching up with me? Or do I really like the main guy?
Since my last serious boyfriend it took me quite some time to find any boy that could keep my attention? Yes--there were the lucky few who I dated briefly hoping they might be something more, but it never would happen. I'd find a million things wrong with them and at the begining they seemed close to "perfect!"
Now, I have someone who I never thought was "perfect" and I put myself out there! And I am still hanging out there on a very short limb with a really hard fall. I think since I have put myself out there I forgot how to have fun and my self-confidence took a vacation from me. It is sad when my own personality can't stand to be around me.
So, I've decided I am hitting the town, meeting new people, making new adventures and making the best out of Cleveland until it's time to say good-bye. Also, I plan to take many more vacations to save my sanity!
Back on track to my original point...
I used to be able to hang out with a bunch of different guys and just have fun, but lately I can't even find a backburner guy. Does this mean karma is finally catching up with me? Or do I really like the main guy?
Since my last serious boyfriend it took me quite some time to find any boy that could keep my attention? Yes--there were the lucky few who I dated briefly hoping they might be something more, but it never would happen. I'd find a million things wrong with them and at the begining they seemed close to "perfect!"
Now, I have someone who I never thought was "perfect" and I put myself out there! And I am still hanging out there on a very short limb with a really hard fall. I think since I have put myself out there I forgot how to have fun and my self-confidence took a vacation from me. It is sad when my own personality can't stand to be around me.
So, I've decided I am hitting the town, meeting new people, making new adventures and making the best out of Cleveland until it's time to say good-bye. Also, I plan to take many more vacations to save my sanity!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Forgive? Or Forgive Not?
Forgiveness-noun-
1. Compassionate feelings that support a willingness to forgive.
2. The act of excusing a mistake or offense.
I’ve been knocked down more than a handful of times in my life for forgiving people. Not even by the people I have forgiven, but by others for telling me I am too. There are many people who believe that you do me wrong once, I am done with you, but EVERYONE makes mistakes.
I am a firm believer in forgiveness and second chances. Everyone deserves them at some point or another in their life. The difficult part in knowing when you just can’t give someone another chance. If you forgive someone once, is it okay to do it again and again? Also, what if they did something to really hurt you; it is possible to trust someone ever again?
I have been thinking about this a lot the last couple days. The most important factor is being able to believe in who you are as a person, before you can forgive someone and be able to trust him or her again. You have to remember that maybe it will work out, but maybe it won’t. Will you be okay with putting all your feelings and emotions back into something with the possibility of them hurting you all over again? It is such a difficult thing.
If you give up, you may never be happy again, but you also have the possibility of finding different happiness with someone else or something else. If you don’t give up, you could get hurt again and it might even hurt more the second time. However, you could also be the happiest person by following your heart.
It leads me to one of my favorite quotes: “Don’t let pride stop you from finding out where something could go.” I think about this quote daily. I can be a very stubborn person and full of pride, but sometimes you just have to not give up if you believe in someone or something. No matter what you think is going to happen—you just need to follow your heart, and know no matter what you are doing what you believe is best for you, period.
Who knows it could make you the happiest person!
1. Compassionate feelings that support a willingness to forgive.
2. The act of excusing a mistake or offense.
I’ve been knocked down more than a handful of times in my life for forgiving people. Not even by the people I have forgiven, but by others for telling me I am too. There are many people who believe that you do me wrong once, I am done with you, but EVERYONE makes mistakes.
I am a firm believer in forgiveness and second chances. Everyone deserves them at some point or another in their life. The difficult part in knowing when you just can’t give someone another chance. If you forgive someone once, is it okay to do it again and again? Also, what if they did something to really hurt you; it is possible to trust someone ever again?
I have been thinking about this a lot the last couple days. The most important factor is being able to believe in who you are as a person, before you can forgive someone and be able to trust him or her again. You have to remember that maybe it will work out, but maybe it won’t. Will you be okay with putting all your feelings and emotions back into something with the possibility of them hurting you all over again? It is such a difficult thing.
If you give up, you may never be happy again, but you also have the possibility of finding different happiness with someone else or something else. If you don’t give up, you could get hurt again and it might even hurt more the second time. However, you could also be the happiest person by following your heart.
It leads me to one of my favorite quotes: “Don’t let pride stop you from finding out where something could go.” I think about this quote daily. I can be a very stubborn person and full of pride, but sometimes you just have to not give up if you believe in someone or something. No matter what you think is going to happen—you just need to follow your heart, and know no matter what you are doing what you believe is best for you, period.
Who knows it could make you the happiest person!
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