Crabby in Cleveland

My life used to be super exciting. Or so I felt like it was and lately it has just been plain boring. Minus my whole trip to Tampa last weeknd which was just plain fabulous. Although leaving to come home wasn't so fabulous because now I miss my best friend (she is one of the few that fully understands me.) Also coming home sucked because it made me realize that Cleveland is my home based on how long I have lived here but it doesn't feel that way.

Back on track to my original point...

I used to be able to hang out with a bunch of different guys and just have fun, but lately I can't even find a backburner guy. Does this mean karma is finally catching up with me? Or do I really like the main guy?

Since my last serious boyfriend it took me quite some time to find any boy that could keep my attention? Yes--there were the lucky few who I dated briefly hoping they might be something more, but it never would happen. I'd find a million things wrong with them and at the begining they seemed close to "perfect!"

Now, I have someone who I never thought was "perfect" and I put myself out there! And I am still hanging out there on a very short limb with a really hard fall. I think since I have put myself out there I forgot how to have fun and my self-confidence took a vacation from me. It is sad when my own personality can't stand to be around me.

So, I've decided I am hitting the town, meeting new people, making new adventures and making the best out of Cleveland until it's time to say good-bye. Also, I plan to take many more vacations to save my sanity!