Breaking it Down

Breaking it down…

Everyone seems to always be complaining and having such a negative attitude—Including myself, but I am trying to make a conscience effort to change that. A good friend has pointed out that out to me. It is sad too because I always thought I was super happy all the time, but when I really listen to myself sometimes, yikes.

As Maya Angelou once said:
If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude. Don’t complain.”

So I decided to switch things up today with ten things that make me happy, right now. It changes daily, but that is okay because there are always at least ten things that make me happy as serious or silly as they are.

Top Ten Things that make me Happy Right Now…

…the thought that it is already March and warm weather is around the corner

…not knowing what the future has in store for me and being excited, rather than scared.

…long phone conversations

…Cleveland Cavs Basketball….Mo Williams Especially

…Brown Sugar Cinnamon Oatmeal

…Chelsea Handler Books and her show

…a yellow skirt I just bought

…spinach salads with walnuts, blue cheese, and apples

…my friends being my main support system

…St. Patrick’s Day being two weeks away—an all day drinking fest…yay!

Quit complaing today and figure out ten things that make you happy!

What is it?

Happy 105th Birthday Theodore Geisel

Make sure you take the time today to make a childish rhyme today to wish one of my favorite children's authors, Dr Seuss a Happy 105th Birthday!

My "Perfect" Mate Checklist (if it is possible)

I read another blog today that motivated me to write a list of the things I want in my future man other than the obvious, good family/friends, stable job/income, funny/smart, respects me. Those are obvious things and normal, right?

Here it goes and in no particular order.

He...

has to be able to make me laugh at anytime, laugh at me and with me. Laughter is very important to me

has to love animals, kids, old people and my dog.

has to be able to have fun with or without drinking. With that goes being able to handle their alcohol. It’s called pacing yourself.

needs to have his own life, but also know that he has to be willing to be a part of my life at times and be okay with making sacrifices.

must have read the Giving Tree (my favorite Children’s book), and seen the movie, Elf.

is Irish (it isn’t a deal breaker, but it would be nice)

is partial to the names Zooey and Violet for girls and Rian and Rylan for boys

understands I am stubborn and can’t argue, but I will try to argue and that makes everything worse, always…

must enjoy traveling (and believe that getting away every 3 months is crucial to our sanity)

understands that I want a crazy purple wedding…small or big it doesn’t matter as long as it is purple and with the man I love, of course.

volunteers their time to a good cause every once in awhile.

is polite to my friends and treats them well (that is really high up there)

likes themed parties because I plan to have them at our house, often

doesn’t smoke

likes Cleveland sports (this might be difficult if I move out of Cleveland)

Weekend Details

And this is how my weekend started…

He called it “a loose situation.” In my head I was thinking he is a 100% right, but my heart was a bit broken by that statement. Lets not go around saying shattered, but a piece or two crashed to the ground. You shouldn't go around using the word "loose" lightly, right?

Let's just add this one to the Gallery of Broken Hearts.

If I wasn't jaded about love before (which I am pretty sure I was), I definitely am now. I'm not bitter, lets not get those two confused. Besides jaded sounds such much cooler than bitter.

In the meantime sometimes some things or even people surprise you. I'm not going into detail by what that comment even means because usually I just end up choking on my own words and word vomit tends to be my downfall.

Anywhoo—other weekend news:

I was super excited when I realized my best friend, Erin's boyfriend and I have the same birthday. I have no idea why this brought pure excitement to my life, but it did. Erin and I live pretty parallel lives, and it is crazy too because for the longest time we weren't the biggest fans of each other, but now I adore her. So my new thought is maybe to find Mr. Right (and not Mr. Right now) I need to find someone who was born on Erin's Birthday.

I am falling more and more in love with Chelsea Handler and realizing that I need to have my own T.V. show as soon as possible.

My dreams of Pinkberry, Sprinkles Cupcakes and my quest to find Brody Jenner. All will be happening very soon. Okay, Okay. Pinkberry and Sprinkles Cupcakes-the whole Brody Jenner thing just might be a bit ridiculous, hopeful thinking.

I bought a super cute yellow skirt—now the stupid SNOW needs to go on a much needed vacation, and send SUNSHINE to replace it.

Also for Lent, even though I am not a practicing catholic (most of the time) I still decided to take part in the Lenten promises (or whatever you want to call it). I decided rather than giving up drinking, like I originally planned—which was on of my less intelligent ideas I've ever had. I decided to do at least one nice (but not limited too) thing for someone else.

Sunday night: Despite how my weekend started. I went to bed laughing…

And that is how my weekend ended...

Thankfully there were no more "loose" situations :)

Where are you SPRING?!

I am so sick of this weather and the fact that it ruing my social life is also becoming rather annoying.

Example:
Boy: HEY! What are you doing tonight?
Me: It depends on the weather.

Why is it that the weather is controlling my social life and not me? I hate driving in the snow it takes at least twenty extra minutes to get anywhere when it snows. And it isn’t even my driving that scares me it the other whack-a-doodles on the road that worry me.

I also don’t look as cute in the winter. I am a lot paler. I hate 98% of sweaters because they itch and cause a lot of static (That is happening to me today.) I basically spend my days dreaming of cute tank tops, dresses, flip-flops and shorts all year long. Now the daydreaming is getting out of control because stores are bringing out spring/summer clothes. Sigh.

Usually it takes one spring/summer clothing (I buy accessories all year round—I love them) item to get me anxious for spring and then it happened…

Today I was shopping online and got super excited because I found the cutest bright yellow pencil skirt. (Don’t think 80’s) I started to imagine how cute it would be with a plain white tank and super cute jewelry. I could wear it out to the bar, sit on the patio and drink Coronas. It was beautiful, but I tried to snap out of it fast and now I am trying to figure out a way to get through till April.

Side note:And even then Mother Nature can Pull a fast one on us in April. You just can’t trust her.

Tonight I am going out with one of my guy friends! Hopefully we can be entertained and keep eachother entertained!

Alone vs. Dysfunctional

Just today one of my guy friends asked me via text:
How was your Valentines Day?

Me: Valentines Day was alright! How about you
Him: I saw a couple girls cry. Made me kind of happy not being in a relationship.
Me: Oh, God! That was me two or three weeks ago. I want a relationship, but definitely not a dysfunctional one. I’ll take nothing over dysfunctional.
Him: Yeah, totally agree.

Why is it that girls (and guys too) put themselves in these ridiculous relationships? I can honestly say I would much rather be alone (but with my friends, of course) than be with someone who doesn’t appreciate me. [Example: when a guy you are “dating” makes out with another girl in front of you.] There is nothing “fun” about dysfunctional. I used to not mind a little dysfunction, but I am getting way to old to deal with arguments (over petty things), immaturity and tears. There has to be someone out there who appreciates me, right? RIGHT?

I hope so because I am getting pretty lonely all by myself. It isn’t even that I NEED a guy, but I really want to find the “one.” I’m ready.

Wishful Thinking...

Crabby in Cleveland

My life used to be super exciting. Or so I felt like it was and lately it has just been plain boring. Minus my whole trip to Tampa last weeknd which was just plain fabulous. Although leaving to come home wasn't so fabulous because now I miss my best friend (she is one of the few that fully understands me.) Also coming home sucked because it made me realize that Cleveland is my home based on how long I have lived here but it doesn't feel that way.

Back on track to my original point...

I used to be able to hang out with a bunch of different guys and just have fun, but lately I can't even find a backburner guy. Does this mean karma is finally catching up with me? Or do I really like the main guy?

Since my last serious boyfriend it took me quite some time to find any boy that could keep my attention? Yes--there were the lucky few who I dated briefly hoping they might be something more, but it never would happen. I'd find a million things wrong with them and at the begining they seemed close to "perfect!"

Now, I have someone who I never thought was "perfect" and I put myself out there! And I am still hanging out there on a very short limb with a really hard fall. I think since I have put myself out there I forgot how to have fun and my self-confidence took a vacation from me. It is sad when my own personality can't stand to be around me.

So, I've decided I am hitting the town, meeting new people, making new adventures and making the best out of Cleveland until it's time to say good-bye. Also, I plan to take many more vacations to save my sanity!